कौन हो तुम?

तुम पास हो ,

मगर हो भी नहीं।

तुम सांसो में बसे हो,

मगर हो भी नहीं। 

तुम दिल का दर्द हो,

मगर हो भी नहीं। 

तुम जिस्म की हरारत हो ,

मगर हो भी नहीं।

तुम सूरज की पहली किरण हो,

मगर हो भी नहीं। 

कौन हो तुम  

जो इस तरह मुझे घेर रहे हो ?

                      My journey towards LIFE

                            "They say that happiness will find you,

                             But I think sadness finds you too,

                             It sneaks up on you in darkness,

                             It opens holes in what was solid ground,

                             The kind you never knew were there

                             Until you go to take another step,

                             and find you are standing over air,

                             The world around you passes by,

                             In blurs of colour and sound

                             Nothing around you making sense,

                             As you continue your plummet down,

                             You can't remember how it started,

                             And you don't know when it will end,

                             But you know that you'd give anything,

                             To stand up on your feet again"

                                           ( Excerpt from "SADNESS" by Erin Hanson)

My journey through the last few months, probably more than that, has not been an easy one for me and my loved ones. I was SAD, sad at the things happening around me, sad at the person I have become and just plain  sad. I don't know how to explain the emotion I was feeling. I felt gutted. I was crying, even howling most of the times that I was alone. I was prescribed drugs, which I am still taking, but that didn't make me feel good about anything that was happening to me. One day while scrolling through Instagram, I found a page "Anandism". And from there started my journey of Param Anand.